Jack laughed today

Sunday evenings are not exactly relaxing for our family. After a full weekend and preparing for the week ahead – we are constantly checking our to do lists to make sure everything is set. But now… both babies are in bed and I can catch you up on what has been happening a little. It’s just life stuff – no major appointments or decisions – praise the Lord for the normal days. I literally thank God for when Jack wakes up from every nap without his eyes being swollen, or when I get to skip the saline routine at night during his feeding because he can breathe just fine that moment… or that he has gone down to just one feeding/night!  I got to sleep 5 hours straight this week – VICTORY! I have a feeling though, that this journey of parenthood is an uphill one. In the past hour I have needed saline three times. I can’t wait to meet with the ENT in Grand Rapids – hoping that he has the insight and willingness to work with us – now make it 4 times this hour (poor boy).  I actually hooked him up to the sleep apnea monitor that the equipment company never picked up even though he has been discharged for three months just to see if all this is causing him to stop breathing throughout the night.  So far, every random time I have put the electrodes on it has not gone off… but we’ll see how tonight goes!  It was really weird putting the pads on his chest tonight. He is so much bigger than the last time I placed them. A well of emotion bubbled in me as he smiled up at me as I laced the cords through his diaper and in-between the snaps of his sleeper. We’ve come so far in four months. I had almost forgotten about what it was like having a sleep apnea monitor every hour for the first 6 weeks of his life. (In case you were wondering: it is terrible and I wish the machine on no one. the day that I got to hold my baby without wires was the most wonderful of days. I finally felt like I had a baby!) We have learned so much about one another.  Like how he loves being tickled just under his chin and when you kiss him right next to his lips he just can’t help himself – he laughs!  I cried the first time I realized that he was laughing. I am so proud of my boy. He is so sweet spirited. Not overly eager, not a go getter… but one of those people that makes you feel better about life just by being in his presence. I don’t know if I can explain it. He feels like he’ll just be your best friend. He smiles easier now. He’s pretty much always happy. He loves when you sit and talk with him, and he loves just hanging out and playing with toys. I feel so incredibly blessed to know Jack Moses. I feel honored that God chose me and Seth to be his parents.  There is no one else I would rather parent with than Seth. He takes amazing care of the three of us. He is our patient, quiet leader that allows for us all to keep our sanity. He is hardworking and wise and I love him.  In fact… I think I will go find him now 🙂  goodnight!


8 thoughts on “Jack laughed today”

  1. Shannin, beautiful writing. I am very touched by the depth of your love for Jack, and example in this new journey of faith you, Seth, Lucy, and Jack are embarking on. My prayers are with you.

  2. So glad to finally see another post 🙂 I kept checking and checking while I was up at night feeding my little baby Isaac to see if you had a new post up yet! So glad you have discovered his little laugh.

    1. haha! I love this. I will keep this in mind. I started wondering if I was posting too much so I slowed down. but thanks for reading! that makes me happy. will I be seeing you all in June?

      — Sent from Mailbox for iPhone

      On Mon, Dec 9, 2013 at 10:45 AM, Don't Doubt Jack

  3. Shannon, Thanks so much for sharing your journey. I am going to recommend your site to my parents if that is ok with you. I know they all will identify with what you are going through and totally understand how beautiful your son is. It may also help some of the parents of my new students with their journeys.
    Mari (bless you all)

  4. oh my goodness–laughing!! So beyond sweet. Jack sounds like an amazing little guy. So glad you are sleeping 5 hours straight! We are definitely not there yet 🙂

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