I had two resolutions for 2013, 1 was fabulous and the other went terribly. The first was to finish every book that I started. I think I have said before that I am a self starter and lack the follow through. This has been a really fun challenge this year. I read all kinds of books all the way through and even enjoyed audio books on my commute to and from work (back when I worked more than I do now 😉 The second goal, which seemed like a good idea: to journal every day. See, I am not a habit person. Most people have habits without realizing it. And I am sure I have some habits…but most of the time I have to switch my routine! haha…maybe my habit is to switch. For example: when flossing my teeth, I have to switch which corner of my mouth I start in. Therefore, I thought journaling would be a good discipline for me since it could look different every day but still be consistent. Ah, but it was too big a task for me. These days this is my journal and that will just have to do.
As for 2014 – as my husband and I fell asleep right after the new year… my mind was blank. Honestly, I see this upcoming year as a big wave we will have to surf and I really hope we don’t go underwater for too long. This year, the things that I know of: Jack has three major surgeries (two for his syndactyl release of his hands/feet, and at least one for his skull fusion or craniosynostosis). On top of that, we are planning on opening our dream coffee shop. Well, our dream is to open a coffee shop. If it will look and feel and operate the way our dream world does is another story! Either of these things is a huge undertaking in itself…. but here we are – riding the wave.
Lucy will be turning two in May, and we will be celebrating our 5th wedding anniversary in July.
This has been the past 16 days:
January 3-4: sleep study
January 4-8: Jack got a virus where he had ranging fevers from 99-103 for 4 days, his soft spot was bulging so I brought him to the doctor where they wanted to do a lumbar puncture for meningitis. So thankful the PA disagreed with the doctor that the LP would be the first move, and after a few phone calls we did a blood test instead. His white count was good. We returned the next morning and he was getting better on his own.
January 6: Cousin’s memorial was postponed due to inclement weather
January 8: Leave for Maryland with extended family on my husbands side, miss the newly rescheduled memorial for my cousin
January 11: 2 am wake up with the flu, spend the rest of the night in the bathroom.
January 11 later that day: lucy gets the flu, miss the wedding that we travelled 12 hours to see (kids did great on the trip though, and the rest of the trip was wonderful!)
January 13: Seth gets the flu – home for 2 days.
January 16: Jack has been sick for two days… praying he gets the bug out soon! This momma is tired!
– side note: thank you mom for being awesome when I was sick. I had no idea that you were probably more tired than I am right now seeing as you had 5 of us! –
My resolution for 2014?
“The joy of the Lord is your strength” (Neh. 8:10)
I have always been one who chooses joy when I can. I’m not fake or private… I think that there is a place for sadness and grief and anger and pity. But I can’t stay there. I can’t stay in those dark places. I look ahead of me this year… and I see a lot of dark places. I don’t like being in my house for too long and I have spent the past 4 days the only place Ive gone is the mailbox. The only person Ive seen is my husband. I’m gonna do more than survive this year though. I feel energized just typing this all out. My resolution is to continue to chose joy- in God.. To let Him be my strength.
I am so weak. I am really afraid, and crazy tired…
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For as we share abundantly in Christ’s sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too. If we are afflicted, it is for your comfort and salvation; and if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which you experience when you patiently endure the same sufferings that we suffer. Our hope for you is unshaken, for we know that as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in our comfort. 2 corinthians 1:3-7
Amen and goodnight.